Knowing that Science has elaborated the concept of multiverse beyond universe. This is same concept that repeatedly mentioned in Quran. But most of people do not consider it.
I do not have formal educational background in Physic let alone Theoretical Physics. However through my relentless brain always questioning everything from the basic question whether God exist up to the purpose of human being exist and or being created to live in Earth.
I am born as Simian Liner, means I have palm line that interconnected between brain and heart. I can not differentiate things solely in basis of logical without emphaty exist, and vice versa, I am unable to make decision solely because my heart said to do so.
Simian Liner born to be good leader, however this characteristic trait also come with negative affect. Simian Liner prone into depression due to they can not handle situation that nerve their hearts. They are not a good liar , they unable being hypocrite. When they are living in society that hypocrisy happen, and they unable to prevent and or doing something to repress hypocrite society. Simian liner facing huge deal of depression.
As Simian Liner, I do suffer with depression. If I were not spiritually religious person, I would have been took my life. There is several time I am consider to end my life. Because all of the burden of life I am facing. Common belief think that millennial generation is entitlement to particular things. Hence, I would like to contradict those notion with the factual information how millennial who has upbringing in low middle income household dealing with life that confine by the concept of money. Money has negate every good things in life and channelling it into greedy and gluttony. When the millennial upbringing are from high middle income household, I will not making comments about the entitlement stuff. However, please also be mind. The millennial generation in Indonesia has been severely expose with unpleasant fact of history. We should have been aware that we are the person who live to be an eyewitness of the 1998 monetary crisis and the collapse of Soeharto (The New Era regime). We are witnessing how the implication from the political shiftiest and scenario. We are expose to Bom Bali issue. We read about tribal feud (or you may called genoside) between Maduran vs Dayak in Borneo. The feud between Muslim vs Christian in Moluccas. I remembered all those factual history was happening in my teenage year. At those time, I were just juvenile who do not care enough with political and religion feud nor fight. However in my subliminal consciousness, I was actually thinking about it.
People evolve, human grown up and evolve both as individuals and or society. Change is inevitable. We all will be changed into another setting whether we are ready or not, we are liked or not.
Same as another human, I am evolve. My physicality changing, my personality grow.
Although, I did not ready to face the life struggle. God has it written. And we already sign up and understand the agreement we made between us with God before we enter the gate from being astral being into a living being with flesh, bone, blood.
I know my source of depression. And no one can cure it except God.
The task that God want us to live in this universe of multiverse is to finished our assignment.
If we are reluctant to finished our assignment or make protest with those assignment by committing suicided, we will absolutely left this universe. However, our astral being will be in limbo of in between multiverse.
I can questioning everything that God has been decided for me. However, I already agree upon the edge of the gate of life. So technically, all of the happening are upon our consent and agreement with God. God known better than us. Not to mention we are now forget all of our detail in those agreement as part of our assignment here in Earth realms.
If I do not believe with God existence or reluctant to believe God existence same as the atheist, I would have been took my life in suicidal attempts.
Quran has warn us that only those who using their brain to think, are the one who is lucky. My brain and logic has been taught me from the underlying basic of God existence and furthermore it has been transcends into the concept of multiverse thanks to the theoretical Physics that gradually proven into tangible proof of theory. Science continuously proved what it has been written in Quran. And I will be the stupidest person who not only dwelling in inferno but also deny the fact of God controlling everything.
One of assignment God want us to fulfil is to love God beyond anything else.
Hence, I am continously try and do what God want which is KEEP ALIVE.
I shall and have to love God beyond anything else, therefore, to prove my intention into tangible acts. I have to keep living,
If I were took my life, it means I am not love God beyond anything else.
So this is my declaration love to God. I love God. And I am still live.
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